i'm loving touch, nowadays.
maybe because of the bond that is between us, team mates.
and also the things that i've learned.
i was an amateur when i started TOUCH.
knew absolutely nothing and was totally a blond over it.
i can hardly catch a ball and when was being taught a move, an encore of it was never a miss.
even when said, i understood it all, partially i was lying.
i was so blur, i myself was pissed off.
but now, things have changed.
i could see myself improve. not the klutz, i used to be.
improve to be a better player and a better team mate to the others.
now, a hard and long pass from the contact guys, isn't a problem to me.
and teaching the others what i know, comes out naturally now.
now that POL-ITE is coming up, i feel nervous for my fellow mates who are new to this game.
but this batch, is worth applauding.
for their hard work, their willing-ness to learn and effort to attend trainings.
i really love you girls.
*****
i admit that i suck big time at it. whatever was said just now, i felt it.
a mixture of overwhelming feelings. hurt, shock, anger, sad, happy? hmm..
but overall, shock was the most. my mood crashed immediately.
it was intense. so intense, tears nearly formed and a slight pain was felt in my chest.
just get over it, dyania. you have to be strong.
it's easy to say, then actually doing it. but assuming, also contradicts the situation.
whatever it is, i know i am strong;
with the support from God and the people i love and care most,
i will try my very best and hardest overcoming it.
a mixture of overwhelming feelings. hurt, shock, anger, sad, happy? hmm..
but overall, shock was the most. my mood crashed immediately.
it was intense. so intense, tears nearly formed and a slight pain was felt in my chest.
just get over it, dyania. you have to be strong.
it's easy to say, then actually doing it. but assuming, also contradicts the situation.
whatever it is, i know i am strong;
with the support from God and the people i love and care most,
i will try my very best and hardest overcoming it.
*****
CONTACT is really missed during the 2 months absence.
and i really can't take it, no more. seeing the guys train, really makes it even worse.
playing rugby, really helped me get through life, a whole lot with overcoming fears and temporarily taking away my problems.
it makes me become a more stronger and tougher person, inside and out.
i have grown to love this sport and even shared the love with others.
but it is not all bringing down opponents.
it's a thinking game; kind of like Chess.
now i really hope, when i get back in July, the drive will still be there.
need to crash now. laters.
<3,dyania
thanks you