what a fucked up day.

ohhhh god.
projects, exams, trainings, and other commitments are KILLING me slowwlyyy.
problems after problems, keep coming up. sucks man.
i just need time to shut things up.
i really need to isolate from people everywhere, work and trainings.
if i don't do it soon, i think i'll just go mad.

and one more thing before i end.
i don't even care whether people turn up or not.
you choose it, you jolly well know how to commit to it.
me and the regulars don't want to be the only ones keeping this thing alive.
can't commit to it? SIMPLE.
just tell the Captain, and she'll strip your name off.
don't keep us waiting for you people to come down and waste our money to call you up.
and ohh. don't worry about numbers.
we will carefully recruit the new intake next year.
won't want to make the same mistakes again.

why must this happen to me? isn't there anybody else?
why must it be me??
why do YOU keep coming to me? why?
i told you already that i don't like you.
but why do you still keep pestering me?
i just can't simply avoid you, each time i see you. i had enough of this stupid nonsense.
FUCK YOU, ***** BASTARD. nb cb.


i need you real badly right now.