I AM DOOMED!
i had just finished my malay oral. and i think i did badly. the malay girls had to leave the class at 1.15pm. so after that we went to see Cikgu Suzana and then we headed off for lunch. we went to Alfiah and ate Roti Prata. i ate 1 egg prata (diet larh). then we went straight to the Bedok Green Sec Shool for our exam. i was so nervous and scared. then we went to the 3rd floor for our oral. the Bedok North Sec people are also there. so there i was, scared and damn nervous. my heart was beating so fast.
Shelia was the first one. i can tell she is damn nervous. i was the 2nd last person. then it was Natasha's turn. next it is going to be ME! arghhh! shit! what should i do? what should i say during the conversation? should i read the passage loud? what if i don't know what to say during the conversation? this questions are in my head as i read through the passage outside. then as Natasha was going out, i was so nervous i felt like going to the toilet.
then it was my turn.
i greeted the teacher and gave my IC. then the reading started. my reading was not too bad but i jerked quite often. then it was the conversation. the examiner asked me " apakah hobi kegemaran awak? " then i said "hobi kegemaran saya ialah bermain Tenis. umm...ummm..dan saya suka bermain tenis kerana umm...umm..kerana saya suka dengan sukan dan ummm.umm...dan...dan..umm.." then i stopped. for at least 1 minute. that was BAD NEWS. then the examiner asked me " apa lagi sukan awak suka selain tenis? " then i said " badminton. kerana...ummm...ummm.." i stopped again.
the examiner said " apa bezanya tenis dan badminton? " i said " bezanya ialah raket tenis lebih berat dan untuk bermain tenis mesti mengunnakan bola." then the examiner said " ada lagi awak nak cerita? " i said " saya ada guru tenis yang baru meninggal dunia. walau pun dia selalu marah- marah, saya suka dia kerana dia ada baik hati. dan dia pun guru subjek saya." then the exmainer said i can go. after that i feel like wanting to repeat the whole thing over again. i felt so useless. i reflect back the oral just now and i felt like i was not Malay. like i have never spoken malay before. gosh. i feel REGRETFUL and USELESS as a pure malay student.
thanks you